Update

So as of this moment I have been in the US of A for 2 months, 2 week, and 5 days! Lets just say its been fun, emotional, boring, challenging, exciting, and a whole array of other things. I've learnt a lot about myself which has surprised me, i've learnt a lot about Americans, and i've learnt a lot about what it's going to take for me to be able to last a year here. 

For me coming here I certainly knew that I was here to work, I just don't think I really knew how much I was here to work. I at first was shocked at how much I was asked to do on a daily basis that was outside the set guidelines of the program that I'm with; but now i've learnt that in all honesty I really don't mind doing more and it keeps me busy, I do like to work hard for my money, so doing more makes me feel like I've really earn't it. I also thought coming here that it would be one great big adventure - which it is - but i was thinking more along the lines of traveling. I went to New York at the start of March for the weekend and i've been to Philadelphia a few times, but beside that I haven't felt like i've done anything. I mean i'm not the most spontaneous person and i'm not a big adventure seeker in the way that I could go stay at a backpackers and hang out with people I don't know. I'm just not that sort of person. But I wish that I could just stop over thinking what could happen and just go out there and find ways of meeting new people and have some fun!

One thing I'm super duper excited about it that my sister is coming in five weeks!!!! i'm so flipping excited about this and we are going to go to New York and be great little tourists and I just can't wait.

Career?!

The future, what does it hold? The question that every person is asked repeatedly throughout their childhood "what do you want to be when you grow up?" to which the answer at a young age for me was a coffee shop owner. I was obsessed with the idea honestly, even today the thought often crosses my mind of spending my days making wonderful coffee and serving exquisite food to happy and satisfied customers. I would love to be able to create a place of my own like that, but competition is high and you have to be good, really good to gain a great group of loyal customers. As I got a bit older say 13/14 when people asked me that 'wonderful' question, I would reply with lawyer, that's exactly what I wanted to do. I had everything planned out in my head of exactly how my life was going to go with my plans of being a lawyer at the forefront of my mind. Then at the age of 17 I realized that even as strong as I felt about justice and how important that was to me, being a lawyer just wasn't something I was passionate enough about to dedicate my life to it. I felt that I would end up very bored and regretting my decision and to study law is a long and time consuming process; so that plan went out the door and I was left with nothing. I had no clue what I wanted to do, and i've never had that epiphany moment of thinking of this magical career that I so desperately wanted to follow. No I just think of about 100 things a day that I could be. 

Now that word, be, why does our career have to define what or who we are. Society puts a label on each individual according to what career path you have chosen to or not take. If you're a stay at home mum your labelled as that, sometimes in a positive way, sometimes in a negative. If your a doctor or a lawyer, your labelled as someone who is intelligent and hard working. If you are a tradesman or a hairdresser you are portrayed as someone who couldn't be bothered getting a university degree. For every position there is a stereotype that follows that career path. For me I get annoyed and frustrated at this, why is someone who has decided to be a hairdresser or make-up artist any less intelligent than a doctor or a businessman, maybe that was just a path that they personally choose to go down because that is what they are passionate about. I know that not everyone sees individuals this way, but this world labels us and categorizes us by what we choose to 'be'. 

I guess with my little rant what i'm really trying to say is why does our career have to define has, why does that have to make us who we are. Why can't each individual be seen for who they are and not what they are. For me tight now I'm at the confusing stage, one that I know many people have experienced. The feeling of the unknown. Not knowing what the future holds, not knowing where to go from here. I'm just trying to understand what is the best fit for me and trying to figure out if the career I pick is something I can see myself in for a long time. The dilemma I have though is that I always feel like whenever i think of a career i always think of the stereotypes that go along with it and it can make things a lot more difficult than they have to be. 

I guess I just have to truly follow my heart and my head on this one (as corny as that sounds). Because I am not defined by my career and i'm not defined by what people say about my career. I'm defined by who I am as a person, how I treat other people and how I act in general as a member of society. How I judge or choose to not judge other people and how I love others.

Easter!

Happy Easter! Easter is a wonderful time of the year to celebrate the unconditional and undeserving love that God displayed to us by sending his own son, who was pure of heart, to die for us so that we can be set free from our sins! For Christians, this is what we believe that easter is about. For other people they see easter as a time to have a holiday and eat chocolate. For me I have always seen easter as a time to spend with my family to be thankful and rejoice in what Jesus did for us. Also to yes eat just a small amount of chocolate, but to never forget what easter is really about. I have always been heavily involved in my church and every year I have been busy doing something for the church at easter time. So to not be with my family or my church family this year, it’s a little hard. I got a bit emotional on easter Friday because of being away from what was my norm at this time. However I know that I’m here to embrace whatever comes my way and my host family are so great that they include me in everything that there family do. They even have an easter basket for me like the rest of their children. I just can’t help but shed a little tear for that little pang I feel inside knowing that i’m not with my own family. 

I feel at this time it’s great for me to be able to reflect on my relationship with God and see where I am at. I know that for me I need to really dedicate myself to Him. For at this time I feel like i’m living my life more according to my will than his. I know that for me sometimes that when I feel like I go astray that I can’t come back because I won’t be accepted. But I know that God has an unconditional love for me, more love that I can possibly fathom and he wants me home with him. It’s this time of the year and remembering Jesus sacrifice for us that really reminds me of the true lengths that God went to for us, for me. I can celebrate and rejoice for the debt that was paid by Jesus on my behalf. But most of all I can celebrate for he has risen.

Happy Easter x

My love for make-up

Now the topic of make-up. It seems like it can be such a controversial issues at times. I know that make-up is widely accepted by people, but at the same time I always know those people who do like to judge others for wearing make-up, especially foundation. But for me I love make-up and it's not to cover my flaws, but to enhance my features. I love buying make-up, it really excites me. I love looking my best and ready for the day. But most of all i love applying make-up, it's the artistry behind it which I love. I could and do spend hours just applying make-up. But seriously I get the fact that make-up shouldn't be a mask that people feel that they have to put on. Make-up should be something that you choose to put on, for you.

Some of my favorite products at the moment would have to be:

M.A.C Face and Body foundation: the foundation is a perfect light/medium coverage, it is build able to a full coverage. It has a great dewy finish and is light weight, so it looks like your own skin and that your just glowing from within. The other great benefit of this foundation is that it stays put all day and can be used on the body as well.

M.A.C Pro Long-wear concealer: This concealer is the new love of my life, its a great high coverage concealer that doesn't look cakey or crease under the eyes. It blends really beautifully with M.A.C Face and Body Foundation and it's long lasting. Big thumbs up for this concealer.

Estee Lauder Pure Color Crystal Baby Lipstick: This lipstick has been a love of mine for along time now. It's my go to pinky nude, the way I describe it is your lips but better kind of color. It's great for everyday wear, just to enhance the color of your lips and you need not worry about applying a lip liner or getting a bright color all over your face. It's highly moisturizing and never leaves your lips feeling dry or cracked. A lipstick that I love and will purchase time and time again!

I think the most important thing when it comes to make-up is to not use to because you are ashamed of what you look like. But use it to enhance your beauty so that you can feel confident in yourself.