Contentment

“If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made for another world.” -C.S Lewis

I find myself repeating this quote to myself a lot. It holds such clarity as to why I so often desire so much more than this world can give me. God didn't create us as human beings to live the way we do, and desire worldly possession as we do. I so often wonder what a world without sin and evil would look like. A world where we weren't fighting to survive, or competing with each other the way that we do for success or fame. I so often desire more, more out of this life, more from myself. I put so much pressure on myself cause I can't shake this feeling, when in reality I'm never going to be satisfied here. 

Contentment is something that I have really been struggling with lately. I am the sort of person who is always waiting for the next thing and I rarely live in the moment. I have an extremely over active imagination which doesn't ever really slow down. I always just feel like I have to get through the days to get to the next "thing". Then when it arrives I'm not even thinking about it or enjoying it, I'm just looking to the next "thing". I think a big part of contentment is gratitude. Stopping and thanking God for what we have been given. For the opportunities and experiences that he has provided for us. Knowing that what we have is a gift from him, to be valued and not taken for granted. I know that I will probably never find true contentment on this earth. But I also know that I need to enjoy the moments in this life and be thankful for them. My discontent continues to drive me to do better and do more. But there does become a point when I think you must find contentment in the season, to enjoy and be grateful for what's in front of you. This is what I want to work on. I'll always remember C.S Lewis words, it helps me understand my feelings. But I also desire to live a great life that I have been blessed with on this earth.